27/9/11

I have not been here in a while, not properly anyway. Just been thinking about things, and the more I do that, the less things make sense. How ironic. Had a meeting with the psychiatrist last week, and luckily she beleives in spirits, so she isnt gonna fill me up with meds, although, she did say she could refer me to a specialist, but they will dismiss everything I say as hallucinations. How demeaning would that be, I told her I do not want any more meds and don't like the thought of talking to someone who is going to twist it and say Im imagining things, and she agreed that if my spirits/hallucinations just stick to happening in little episodes, then its ok to go on as I am as long as they don't get distressing.
My ex said he is moving out, but no progress yet, I think he is trying to stick around to get at me but this time Im not taking the bait. He yelled at me and tried saying its my fault tht the boiler is broke. umm excuse me he lives here too so whats wrong with him phoning about it? And if he don't like it, he knows where the door is. And that is exactly what I will say to him. No one is going to treat me like shit any more, im down to my last bit of patience with people like that. Ill write more later Im hungry lol