why?
I can't explain it but I feel so low. Sure I guess one would say that I would have reason to feel down based on what I've been through -but - why now? Although T is not doing well in school (horrible, in fact) he's been great here at home. Then why I am feeling so yucky? It's more about the emotions.....I have no energy to speak of. I took a nap sitting up yesterday before going off to an Al Anon meeting and then this morning - I slept in (T didn't go to school in the AM) and now I am still exhausted. I have so much to do but I just can't do it. Maybe I'm coming down with something, too. Who knows? I know part of the reason is I have nothing to be excited about. I have no job and no desire to look right now - at the same time. Just in rut that I need to get out of. I know I've done exactly what I should not have done - I put far too much energy into T. I know better and yet I let it happen. Intellectually, I know that. Emotionally - I let it get the best of me. Even soccer doesn't do it. Our game is scheduled for 11PM tonight. And I think I'm tired now? This could be just a temporary situation and I'll give it some time. If it continues......I must do something about it. Perhaps....This Too Shall Pass....
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I\'m sure you know that many people feel low not only when the weather gets cold, but around the Holidays. Like you said you may just be catching a bug. You seem very strong and confident to me. I think this is temporary.
Are you healthy -- physically -- enough iron and b vitamins? It could also just be the fatigue of wishing things were better given all of the energy you\'ve put into T. So, perhaps a rebound depression? Rest, be gentle with yourself, and take care!
The good thing that I\'ve recently learned that sounds quite simple is that this is just today. It doesn\'t mean this will be the remainder of your life. Today you feel bad. Tomorrow you may feel better. I have the tendency of feeling horrible one day and really thinking Wow this is my life now, but it\'s not, it just is today. Try to do something for YOU if possible. You deserve some peace. I took a hot bath this evening and watched a really good movie I\'d been wanting to see and wasn\'t about to let anyone ruin it. And I felt much better. And if you\'re sick, it\'ll pass. You\'re smart and you\'re strong, I\'ve read things you\'ve written me that made so much sense and helped a lot. Try to be good to YOU for today. Try to take care of YOU today:)
I like what Rajnyy02 said! It\'s just life...ups downs, turns and you have every right to feel what your feeling for now. Feel it, go through it and then it will leave...you have lots to be excited if for nothing else than to wake up every morning and see what good you can see! I sure know I am grateful for you here and having you as my support!!
Hugs and take that long nice bath!!
Luvs!!