Hand
My hand is getting progressively worse. There is very little I can do with it now. I found out at my doctor's visit that I can barely write. Typing isn't much better since my fingers don't work independentily now. My doc is setting up a catscan to see if I suffered a minor stroke. Because of this you may not see me writing much, but I'll be around. We're setting up a sleep test to help my sleep apnea. Maybe that will help with my suicide thoughts. The doc has prescribed to anti-depressants,,,,one of them to help me sleep. If you don't see me, you, now, know the reason.
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Oh wow Mike. Keep hanging in there buddy. I can relate to so much of this. Disability alone with only the Christian community as \'family\' has proven to me I am as good as dead. I am still learning to accept this but I am so very ill any longer I\'m not sure how much longer I can hang on. How my church, FBC, can feed so many at thanksgiving while being completely comfortable with leaving me here struggling severely neglected and left for dead leaves me understanding a truth about the Christian community I never had to be aware of as long as I had family and was cared for.
I love reading your journals and love you. Take very good care and I hope you come back for more visits soon.
((hugs))
:-) Patricia
It sounds like your doctor is doing all the right things to get you back on the right path of healing and feeling better! I will keep you in my prayers and thoughts of healing for you. Take care, dear friend, and I will look forward to your updates. Hugs!!!!