Over
It will be over soon. It may take a few days, but I'll be gone. My knee has swollen and hurts. I can barely walk around the house. There's no money so I'll be losing my utilities. My rent is paid to the end of the month so I'll be dead by then. I'll take Foxy back to the shelter where I got her so she can find a better home. I'm tired of not being to get a haircut and not being able to do laundry every week, walking around in dirty clothes, worrying where money for food will come from. There's no money for car insurance so I can't drive my car. I've found some pain pills that I used for my knee surgery and I will take them. If that doesn't work, I'll stop eating, turn off the AC and the lights, sit in my old recliner and smoke my last cigarettes. It will be better for my family when I'm gone. I love all my friends I've made here, but understand, I just can't take life anymore. It has beaten me. Goodbye my friends.
Mike
Mike
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I can relate to these feelings. I cut my own hair. I don\'t think about it much as it does not bother me anymore. I no longer wear makeup and that is alright with me as there is no one around to see me anyway.
I can feel your pain but when I went to end my life it turned out not to be so easy in practice as it was in the thinking. I find a lot of relief in just knowing I could end my life anytime I\'m ready. I honor the decisions of people as to their choice but only hope they are willing to discuss it and share their feelings about what they are going through. For me that helps me to hang on.
You are in my thoughts and I care.
When my parakeets die, and one just did a few days ago, I\'m not getting anymore pets unless my life can support all of us well. That day may never come - I don\'t know but I don\'t want more pets if life is like it is now.
((hugs)) of comfort sent your way.
Patricia
Why would you say something like that to us? How is it better for the person that finds you dead? What kind of trauma are you giving them? And your family, who cares about you and loves you? You have family, reach out to them and let them know what\'s really happening to you. Let me tell you, there\'s always a way out, and death isn\'t it, my friend!!!! You know some of the troubles that me and my hubby have been going through.... he has lost his trucking business, has had to hand in his truck, we have just signed the paperwork to declare bankruptcy and now he\'s had a major accident and due to a stupid decision made by a 20 year old, he, his girlfriend/wife, and their 11 month old baby girl are now DEAD! Talk to someone my friend, reach out and check out community centers, tell your family what\'s happening with you... go to the food bank to supplement your groceries, clip coupons, do anything you can to scratch and claw your way back. Think of the kind of life that Foxy might end up with if you just abandon her like that, if she gets a life at all! I\'m crying as i write this, but i\'m spitting mad. Life deals us sour lemons... make lemonade! I\'m not going to sugar coat anything with you and i have to tell you... You\'re selfish!
please don\'t do that. i\'ve been down that road and it isn\'t worth it...foxy needs you and you can lean on his/her for the love you need right now.. we love you here too. how cruel debbie is to you now. i have been so close to living in the streets. i do understand your pain though because we have some in common. i have bad days too and hang onto my grand kids for the love i need to make it through, just watching them makes me feel good and foxy could end up in a horrible situation so live for foxy until things work out. don\'t give up i\'m here for you just send me messages or chat....
please change your smiley face to ok it would be a good start. i know when i am down it is a psych thing and helps me feel optimistic...huggggggggs again