Hanging in There

Well, I'm hanging in there.  Still can't find a job and am very discouraged at my prospects.  There aren't many jobs for a guy who can't stand very long. I'm in the process of applying for disability. Trying to remember who first diagnosed my sleep apnea so I can get my records.  Then have to find my mrsa doc.  And, I have to get to a doc to document my hand.  It's a big job, but I really can't get into it.  I'm so down.  The super cold weather we've been having makes it hard to live.  Yesterday, it was 16 degrees out side,,32 degrees in my bedroom,,and 40 degrees in my living room.  One good thing happened this week and it helps me through the day.  A friend here found out I'd written a book and has been bugging me to try to get it published.  But, its strung out in a lot of places,,,in a word processor and two or three different programs.  So, I've started writing new chapters and it helps pass the time, but its hard with my bad hand..  Its bringing back a lot of very old memories.  Have got to contact the welfare people.  There's been no action on my application and money is running out.  Will have to apply for an extension on unemployment, but feel like I'd rather just sit here and let myself be evicted from my home and live on the street.