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we just got back from our sons ...it was our granddaughters birthday ..the one I paint with .....she is 12 now ....her other grand parents were there we all get along realy well so we all had a great time ....I took a lot of pictures ..and o cupple of little movies ....I even had ...one fourth of a glass of wine .....that's doing good for me ...I had a few sipes of bear ...to ..lol ...living high ...lol ....my grandaughter loved her gifts .....her little brother is 2 and he just loved the birthday cake and iceream ....he put it in his hair ....needed a bath after that ...he had fun helping his sister open her gifts .....if was beautifull outside ...my son did a barbque ....bear can chicken ...it was realy good and juiceie ......it is 10:30 .....I realy had a good time ....my h went to the city today and I stayed home so I could go out tonight .....the last time I went to the city I had a migrain four 5 days ...so happy to say I am doing not to bad ....just feel a little rough ...but I had so much fun .....but this depreshion ..is ..not nice ....it was hot out so I wore my dress I have about 5 of them diferant couloirs and dizines ..light summer dresses ..I can't take the heat ....they have no sleeves so I found a little top very light with a frill all around ..in white Cotten ....well ...the two girle told me I looked beautifull ..and one of them said I looked like a beautifull butterfly ....we laughted ....but ..at home I had to be looking in the mirrior while putting my hair up in a pointy tail on the top of my head and some in the front dowen .....so the longer I had to look in the mirrior the uglier I thought I looked ...at first I thought I looked ok ..and after that it just went dowen hill from there .....but even my daughter inlaw said I looked good ...........but I .put that in the back of my mind ..because I wasent letting this depreshion runin my fun and ..injoying ..my granddaughters birthday ....but I still could feel it back there picking at me ...I just feel better in my jeens and as hurt ....dresed up ...is hard ..for me ...but it is just to hot ....right now ....and so long as I can stay away from mirrors ....I can enjoy my dress ...this sounds nuts I know ....but a little nuts I can deal with ...well I don't have much chouice ..............my son helped me put my fathers number into my iPad and we called him ..and talked ..to him and my twe sisters ...who were there ...that was nice ....I just could not figure out how to do it ..and now that he showed me how it is so easey ...lol ....so my h is watching the newes ..I think I will be up for a little bit yet ....might need a painkiller .....I think I do ....I gess I schould take care of that now befor it gets worse .....you must pay for your fun ....but it was so worth it .....I hope you all had a great day ....take care everyone ...God bless ...