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I had a very good weakend ...I went to one of my daughters ..and we went to a swet ...on the reserve ....I lasted through the hole thing .....I dident thing I would ....it was a realy good experance ...a spiritual experance .....than later that day we went to a seramoney....and ....that was very powerfull ......there way is they don't tell you what is expected of you you are suposto look at the elders and folow how they are doing things ..so I will know next time ......there was this young man sining and he had a beautifull voice ...........you are to keep what you recive to your self ....because it is for you ........as they got started ..they told us that we had not watched the elders to see how they were in there and that he had turned the sterio on and it wasent untill he started sining untill he could quiet U.S. dowen .....but he ..remind us he was telling us this in a teaching..way ....he had other things to tell us befor everything started .......but later I relised that it realy started right when we walked in side ..so we schould of been quiet.right from when we walked in but I dident even know it had started .......................so .when we got home I spent the night at my daughters ...we talked about our experances ....and my h came and picked me up when I came back ....home I told my h all that hapened .......and than .....I started feeling bad because that person at the. seramoney had talked about our not being quiet ..and I got shushed once ...I was feeling bad ...feeling my self going dowen ....so I had to say to my self ...I have to let that go ..because there was so much good that came out of this experance ....and this is what I need to feel ...and keep with me ...not let the depreshion runin this for me ........so that is what I am doing ........if the negative feeling comes up I push it away with all the positive energy I recived ...................today I did some crostiching ....and reading ....I was in the bathroom and my h put supper on the table so my puppy was at my door scratching and barking ...for me to get to the table ....lol....take care everyone ....God bless ......
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It sounds like you had a very nice weekend with your daughter...so great! Please DO NOT feel bad about talking, you didn\'t know it had started. Forget about it and let it go. You should not feel bad about that. He should have not shushed you. I am sure you were not the only one.
I hope you enjoyed your crostiching and reading. Your H sounds great that he put supper on the table. Sounds like a keeper.
Take care and big hugs to you.
if I start feel ing bad about talking ...because it is disrespectfull ..I look at the hole thing ...and have a clearer picture ....and relize I have nothing to feel bad about ...just rember it for the next time ...feeling bad does not accomplish nothing except making me depressed .......we have to stand back and look at it as a hole ...and relize they were teaching they did not want anyone to feel depressed ....and the best thing to do is look at these situations as an observer ......and see what happened and see ware you had a bad reaction .........and relize you are doing that to your self .....it is like you get all these bad feeling going through your head ..look at they and just let them pass don\'t give them any atention .....I am reading a book about this ...I find the name of it and let you know what it is ....thankyou you are so right ...I did enjoy the crostiching and reading ....my h realy is a keeper and I know it and I am so blesed to have him in my life ......it is a true love storie ....you take care ..to ...God bless