hi
somthing strange and funny hapened to me today .....earler my brother had called me up he wanted .to make me somthing for christmass eather christmass cake ....or rasin bread ..he has my grandmothers relapses ......so I said I would like the raision bread and I new he would like some snowballs ...cookies ..so ..he realy liked that idea ....so a cupple of days ago I got all I needed to make the cookies and was going to do them today and than my brother caled me early this morning ...and said he was comming here this Saturday ......for some reason I thought I had more time ...but I had pland to get the baking done today ...so I would of been ready any way .....he is from out of towen ......I even forgot to find out when he will be comming so now I have to call him back to see what I have to cook for them ...if they are going to be ...for lunch ..or supper .....when I got off the phone I just got so overwhelmed ...I just went to go lay in my bed for a bit and pased right out ...I sliped for 3. hours ....and I still feel worn out I couldent bake today so I will have to do it tomorow ...my h had a good laugh ...he said your brother called and you just pass out ....lol ....and now I feel so much pressure that christmass is comming to fast for me .....it is nuts ..........I can't understand how I am still going through this ........than ...not long ago I told my h that we schould get our son who is alone he has had a realy hard time and he will have his kids .....for three days befor christmass ....so I said we schould have him over for a supper ..and my h just burst out laughing .....he said your brother just called you today about cookies and you pased out for three hours ..and you think you can make supper .....he said I cant ......so I said I want to do it any way ....so we will see ...how I am dooing ..if it is to much for me than we will go visit him ...instead .......so we had a good laugh today ..............I couldent belive that hapened to me .........and I can't belive the stress I am feeling over christmass .comming so soon .......does everyone else go through this ..........take care ..God bless
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minnie, yes, this time of year really gets to me. i just want family and love, but feel like i have to push and push beyond my means - physically and financially.
i love my grandmother\'s stories about just being thrilled to get a candy cane and an orange.
my 2 cents is to make the cookies, ask everyone to bring something specific and enjoy each others\' company.
i don\'t know if that\'s asking for a miracle, but that\'s what Christmas is...a time for miracles.
praying for us all to have a happy Christmas and just appreciate all we have.
much love and hugs! s~
Musk, when you suffer with depression everything is such an effort, i mean, think about it..even getting up and dressing is a huge effort when depression is at its worse, this is why pple are unable to work because with depression you just dont have the energy, its draining.
You suffer depression and even tho you are able to function on some levels times like christmas when so much needs to be done, and so much needs thinking about, its no wonder you crashed and fell asleep. Its just your body and mind responding to how you are feeling.
Slow down, think about what christmas is supposed to be about, its not a contest for a medal at the end of it. Family will care more about you and your health than how much cooking youve done.
take care: )
thankyou so much for your comments you are bothe right .....and to me christmass is all about family ....amd I just want to see them all and love them ....in past years I would worry I wasent giving enough ..but now that we are on pension I had to come to turms with we can only give so much and there are so many now ....but for me it was more that I wanted to give somthing to them that I liked ....that I wanted them to have ...when fell into depreshion I had to stop having christmass supper I just couldent do it and that ment my h had to do to much ........so now we go see our children and it is ...wounderfull ....why I still get this stress ....I gess it must be the depreshion .....because I know what christmas is all about and I have no problem with what we give ...and I have never expected anything in return ........it just hits me ....like it did with my brother ...and ...I have to get over it ....and move forward .....so I am moving forward now ....take care ..God bless
HI SIS HUGS,
YEAH IM THE SAME IT FEELS LIKE EVERYTHING HITS ALL AT ONCE N THEN ITS MANIC !!! N EVERYTHING GOES AL WRONG LOL THEN I NEED TO GO LAY DOWN BEFOR MIGRAINE HITS HARD! SO YEAH IM THE SAME...
GOD BLESS MISS YA SWEETIE XO DC
thabkyou good to know I am not the only one not that I would wish anything like this on eneyone just that someone understands me ...God bless ...