anger
I have anger inside me ......I don't know if I can talk about it right now ..because it is upsetting me .....and so my thoughts are not in order .....I reminded my self of this and ware it came from .....talking to someone ...and it just never seams to get better ..it goes to the back so I don't feel it all the time ....but when it come out ...it is almost like .years ago when it was thrust upon me .....some one made me hate them and it took somthing from me I had never knowen that emotion befor I went ......18 ...years never feeling that .....and no one else has made me feel that way about them since but ...that negative energy is in me ..I never got rid of it ....I don't want it .....this person Shure isent worth it .....untill now I dident relize that ..is was the problem it is .......because ..i. this is hard to explain ......I am very spiritual ...and have a lot of spiritual energy good energy .....befor .......this person I had only positive energy inside me ...I dident know what realy negative energy felt like ................I liked that person I was ............I am not saying I dident have problems or dident get upset or angry ......but this is a hole other leavel ..........I want to be that person again I want to be able to move forward in my spitural life ...I have fell like I am stuck .........that my spiritually has been stuck and not able to move forward for a long time now ...............like I am just not able to move forward and I don't even know how .........sometimes I don't even want to ............and I think I have just found that kee ..............but what to do with it ..........I will have to try to talk about it ........maby talk to my phicatrist ..to ......I wish more people read my jurnal ..............take care .......God bless
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AWWWW SIS IM SORRY TO HEAR ALL THIS GENTLE HUGGLES HOWEVER I DO HAVE AN IDEA NOT SURE IT WILL WORK FOR YOU BUT I FOUND IT WORKED OUT FOR ME,
SIT DOWN N WRITE A LETTER AS IF YOU WERE ACTUALLYWRITING TO THAT PERSON! WRITE DOWNYOUR WHOLE FEELINGS ON WHAT HAPPENED N HOW THEY HAVE MADE YOU FEEL!, THEN WRITE DOWN ALL THOSE FEELINGS YOUVE CARRIED AROUND WITH YOU FOR SO LONG ! THEN PLACE THE LETTER INSIDE AN ENVLOPE N RITE OUT THERE NAME ON IT! N ONCE THIS HAS ALL BEEN DONE YOU BURN THE LETTER N THAT BAD MEMORY OF THAT PERSON ! SO YOU MAY BE FREE OF THEM N ANY ANGER YOUVE CARRIED INSIDE OF YOU FOR SO LONG ...
BUT BE HONEST ON WHAT YOU WRITE OF THEM N YOUR ANGER SO IT MAY LEAVE YOUR SPIRIT N SOUL N FOR YOU TO B RID OFF THE NEGATIVE PATTERN INSIDE OFF YOU SAYING AS IT BURNS GOOD BYE TO NEGATIVETY...
GENTLE HUGGLES N CUDDLES GIVE IT A TRY YOUR BE AMAZED OF THE POWER N THE STRENGTH GOD BLESS N GOOD LUCK SIS I BE WITH YOU AL THE WAY LOVE YOU...
thankyou that sounds like a very good idea I never realy got it out never told anyone all she did to me ...I will try that ....and I will take my time and think about it ...so I get it all .....take care ...God bless
So sorry to hear what you are going through holding in this bad feeling. I agree with DCUK. I think you should write down all what you are feeling, just like you were talking to them. It could probably help if you were able to get it off your chest. It\'s not good to carry around that much burden and pain.
Sending much love and hugs.
Dear Muskrat: Because you are a deeply loving person, it was upsetting to you to feel this strong feeling of hatred (anger) and/but -- You didn\'t do anything (that I know of) to act on that hatred --
Personally I think hatred is just one of a wide range of feelings and reactions we can have -- children often say they HATE things and are told that is bad -- truth is they don\'t really know what true hatred is.
Forgive yourself - likely your emotion was really appropriate and troubled you (I wonder if for some that feeling is so much more familiar and perhaps not disturbing at all).
Perhaps you could visualize the wound it caused and the remaining (poisonous) debris being cleared.
None of us leave this world \"pure\" - some of us have less to regret.