Another Day

Today is another day in my life not nothing new to report.  Joined my computer class to learn a little bit more about computers it seems to be coming along well.  I just frustrated about not having any friends to talk to or to share my problems or my life with.  It seems that I am going to be alone for the rest of my life.  All the people who I use to hang out with don't come around anymore or they are going on with their lives because I can't keep up.  I don't no whether it is from the multiple scelorsis or arithsis since I got the new implants in my legs (knee replacements) or what.  I can't walk a short distance without feeling I am going to fall over or my legs are going to give out.  My son wants to get out to be with his friends and I can't take him to movies at night or drop him over at friends houses because I can't drive at night to pick him back up so he gets let out on a bunch of things but that is my least worry he'll be able to get with friends when he's off to college or later on this year with his friends that are driving.  I would let him drive my car but he is not responsible enough and I can't afford the insurance on the car much less if he wrecks it that is the only means of my transportation so what am I suppose to do.  It feels like the Lord has dealt me a bad hand and I don't know what to do.  I feel like my life is over.  I don't work, can't walk,overweight what do I have to offer anyone.  I guess I can just give my friendship and understanding plus my moods with depression doesn't help either my mind feels like it is in left field half the time I don't have anyone to talk to so I really don't know how to relate to people when I am around them I don't really have a conversation piece to talk about I am just messed up.  Well I guess I'll go to my M.S. meeting maybe I'll hear something positive that might lift my spirit and probably just getting out of the house will help my mood.  Until next time I guess I just have to be blessed.