Today is Tuesday and it is about 6:00p.m.  I have started to prepare food for dinner and just letting the vegetables finish cooking.  I am not anxious or upset today I am just feeling okay. I finally decided to get out of the house I went and took my son over to one of his friends house and while I was out I decided to stop at my sister's house.  She had company so I didn't stay to interrupt them.  I called my girlfriend and asked what she was doing and she said nothing but sitting on her back porch so I decided to go over there.  We sat outside and listening to music and talked about things she was doing.  I drank some wine not a whole lot but a little.  Then I decided it was time to come home.  I basically and tried of sitting in the house and I am going to start getting out a little more often.  It felt good and I was still somewhat reluctant because I haven't been out in such a long time I didn't know exactly what to talk about so I just listened and if I felt I could add something to the conversation I did.  I explained I hadn't been out in a long time and that I wasn't familiar with all the new technology that was out here with the cellphones playing all the music for you, they asked why I didn't have text messaging on my cellphone I told them because I don't need it I don't text anyone cause I don't know alot a people like they do.  Plus it is something I don't need at the present time.  Other than that I still feel like I could do better in a lot of areas of my life I have decisions that I still have to make about my son attending school and that bothers me a lot and I still worry that I can not use the computer and know technology as well as I should but I am going to continue to take it one day at a time.