Today is Monday and everyone is out of school except my son and he is boiling mad because I made him go.  I was trying to take care of some business this morning but found out that I couldn't because businessess were closed, so I guess I'll take care of it tommorrow.  Had a pretty good time yesterday, friends from my old job invited me to come to a dinner for my friend who recently got out of the hospital.  They cooked a lot of food for her and we just sat around and talked, some played cards but basically just talked about what was going on at their job.  I felt a little sad while sitting their because I remember that I use to be in the loop, new all of the gossip, was up to date on everything in general and now since I've been out of work for the past 6yrs I feel as though I don't know anything.  I thought about what I would have by now if I hadn't got sick, I could have joined in with them when they were talking about taking cruises ,buying new car, getting plasma tvs, buying clothes, etc., oh how I wish that could be me with the group but my finances want allow me too.  Since I'm on disability things are limited I don't know what I will do from one day to the next.  But I have to remember again that is in the past (the Job) and I have to let it go and look forward to what I can do with the situation that I am in.  But I must admit it hurts and after I left I started to get into a pity party for myself but had to pull myself together and not show it in the front of my son.  He asked did I have fun and I have to admit I was glad to see the old gang.   Well I guess I'll start getting ready to put on my clothes to go to the doctor to get my shot for the MS.  I hate this but it's a part of my life now so I guess I have to just deal with it.  I'll have to pick up something later on, because I know I want feel like doing anything else today.  Will see how it goes and tommorrow maybe better.  Still the bright side is I did get out and wasn't in the house and wasn't by myself.