Today is Friday.  Well I am glad to be alive but here it comes again a little bit of depression.  I don't have anything to do and its the weekend.  I don't feel like reading, I am bored with looking at the tv, I don't won't to eat, I've had a couple of drinks and don't want to get smashed.  I am just bored with my life right now and don't know what I want to do.  I don't know what really makes me happy except for my son and family, but they are all doing their thing and I can't really ask them to just cater to me.   I guess I am sounding selfish.  I am mad at the things that have happened in my life and I'm having a hard time getting over them or letting it go.  I see a therapist but she doesn't talk alot she only listens to me rambling on and on and I guess it good for me to vent.  But I want her to give me the magic answer or for someone to wave a wand and then ca-poof everything would be alright but I know that that is just wishful thinking.  I'll just deal with it tomorrow maybe better I might just call another girlfriend out of town to just hear her voice maybe she will give me some good advise.