Well I told the girl i finally liked her...... I didn't want to.. but i figured it had to be done before someone spouted something before i could. .. It was a letdown... as always.... i guess some people know how i feel... For some reason tho things just feel diff with her than any other crush.... and now we have to get back to the jist of beign friends... See first we had an awkward day at school cause i was trying to avoid her all day didnt work to well... thats when later that nit at the JV football game i found out she lost the note.. so i have to give her the original (very wordy copy) and like that nite she called me to ask me the score and i sounded upset and she asked what was wrong and i said nothing Of course i lied WHO WOULDNT?!?! then like i called her just to talk to her... but when she's at her house her cell phone is really retarded so i had to leave a voice mail. Later that nite she called me back and i didnt wanna answer the phone cause i knew it was her and i knew it was gonna be another let down.... She was like i read your letter i just said mmhmm... and then she said I don't know what to say... I mean ill still be your friend.. but it can't go any farther than that... and i just kind of cut her off saying I know and then changed the subject.... cause u kno even tho u say ur not affected you really are i was hurting really badly.... then like it was only 5 minutes on the phone but it was the longest 5 mins. and Friday we didnt even talk to each other that much..... sept when she left the game.... and she said something to me nad i said something to her and then that was it..... im still sad... but i guess it takes time to get over things... even tho we want the best.... sometimes its just hard to let it go when you think you have a chance..... but you know u really dont
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