Frustrated

Okay it’s official.  I am depressed.  I lost my job back in Feb and have not received any income, except for SS and the money Frank gives me for rent since then.  I need more than that to cover my bills.  My finances are a mess.  Now I finally got some leases with my Apartment locating job, but it takes so long to get paid on these.  Not my companies fault, it is the Apt. complexes take their sweet time paying on these things.  When they start coming in I will be alright.  In the meantime I need to get some extra money, I tried to have a garage sale.  Guess what.  Hardly anyone showed up.  I spent days going through my things and pricing everything.  What a bummer.  I didn’t do ebaby causse I need immediate cash.  I’m glad I already have my ticket to NJ.  I really like the apartment locating job, but it is really difficult.  There is so much competition out there and people do not remain loyal to you.  One little girl I tried very hard to help, who had a drug charge on her record, went and rented something without using my name.  I tried so many places to try and get her rented, then she turns around and does this.  That is just one incident.  I have however, helped several very nice loyal people.  When it works it is very rewarding to me, to find people a nice place to live.  As many of you know or remember I bought a car back in Jan. before I knew I was going to lose my job.  I did manage to get one deferred payment from Ford Credit.  I may have to ask for more.  I have been on several interviews for part-time jobs but no luck.  I cannot even get arrested.  (joke).  Some of it I think due to my age (63) and also because I am a Cancer survivor.  I do want to continue with the apartment locating but I wanted to get something else to supplement.  Tomorrow I am going up to baby-sit Christian.  Rob and Sara are going to a wedding.  Sara is going to take Heidi with her.  She is breast feeding and Heidi won’t take a bottle.  Seeing the kids always perks me up a bit, so I am looking forward to it.  Thank you for listening to my rant.  I will be okay.  Love and hugs to all of you.  Anita