venting

thanks for the people who reached out to give me a hug I needed it as I go through this journey again and discover myself. I don't know why I can't leave I feel like I'm giving up but this time its harder for some reason. It is him giving me crap about all his ex girlfriends doing the same thing kicking him out on the street with no where to go its all my fault because I don't understand him or the fact I have anger issues from the last relationship I was in (marriage) Or I am not treating him right. I know I have issues I'm dealing with on a regular basis I was diagnosed with a disorder I do get angry easily but I'm working on it. The only solace I get is from my son and animals. I never know what kinda mood I'm walking into. Just tired don't have anything left to give. Tired of fighting and feel like I'm beating my head against a brick wall. I don't deal with stress well it seems like ever since he has been looking for work things are worse at least I had some time to get away and get ready for the next battle. Hell I have done what I can filling out application, doing his resume etc. I just want to take a trip get away