I am so sick of trying to be positive. I feel like I am going to go insane. I feel like I am stuck in this life that I am helpless in.

What can I do? Nothing, there is nothing I can do.

It makes me sick literally ill.

I try to think of what I have and all I can see is what I dont have.

I am scared, so scared. I am angry and I want somebody to blame.

I want somebody to fix this, I want it to go away.

I cant deal with it anymore.

I am sick of the lump in my throat.

I am sick of acting like Im okay.

I feel like Im going crazy.

Babies babies babies.... its not just in my imagination that is what is going on in the world.

People reproduce that is what we were meant to do, what am I meant to do? Not reproduce, then what?

I dont want to force anymore smiles I want to scream I want to blame.

Its not fair