So first of all thank to all my loving DS friends that are so sweet to leave me notes on my post, I love you all.  In my last post I told you I was at work having my miscarriage, however the cramping had not started yet. I was bleeding but by Wednesday I had still not passed and tissue and I was running a fever so I called my doc but he was out and I had to talk to the on call doc who told me to go to the ER.  So right before I left my doggie, the love of my life and only child (living) had a seizure! I was so scared he had never done that before, but hes ok now anywho I felt horrible because I couldnt be with him b/c I had to rush off to the hospital to be poked and proded at by total strangers who kept telling me that miscarriage is so commen and that I shouldnt worry Ill have a baby next time, ha ha, if they onl knew this is not new ground for me you should have seen the looks that I got when I said yeah well this is my fourth so I know what to expect...... I try not to be too snappy b/c people dont mean to say hurtful things but its so upsetting when people just ass u me youre normal, Im not normal and no next time wont be perfect like they say!  Anywho spent all day in the ER and they doped me up and finally my doc called in ( on his day off, hes great) and told them to send me home, not to do the D &C b/c if it had to be done he wanted to do it himself.  So they sent me home gave me darvaset, which does nothing for pain, stick to Advil. I passed my little one the second I got home and I saved him or her in a little jar and as soon as spring comes I am planting a garden for all of my losses!  Okay Im done crying around, I am moving forward! IVF here I came, love youall!