So, first the bad news....... I am currently having my fourth miscarriage. Last thursday there was no heartbeat and the baby had not grown so my Doc told me he suspected I would miscarry in a day or so. I took fri and sat off contemplating I would miscarry ( and for my mental health) however here it is Monday I am at work and the miscarriage is starting now. My cramps are minimal in the past it doesnt really hurt that bad until I pass the sac, then as the lining tears away I really start to cramp but Im hoping those pains start tomorrow b/c I have tuesdays off.So yes this news stinks, and yes Im am again heartbroken, and no I dont feel like I can keep doing this so were going to do something different. 3 mondays from today I go back to my Doctor so that he can be sure I have passed everything and then we are being reffered to a speacialist so that we can start IVF. Big scary step. I wasnt sure if I wanted to adopt or go this route but I really want to know what its like to be pregnant and besides I have way better chances of having multiples, which would be awesome.The only thing that my husband and I have been praying for throughout this pregnancy is that God does his will in our lives and that we can be granted peace of mind nomatter what the circumstance, I am very blessed because God has answered that prayer. I am not afraid of not being a mother, I am one now to four babies that are safe with God and sometime in the near future I have Faith that God will give me my earthly baby.
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So sorry for your loss. It is sometimes hard to understand gods plan, but I do believe he has one for all of us and I will pray for you that he does give you that earthly baby you are so wishing for.
Aw sweetie I\'m so sorry that you are having to go through this again. Let me know if I can help you in any way.
I\'m sorry this is happening to you again. You will be in my prayers.
you have an amazing outlook. fantastic. i, too have had 4 losses, but i am staring \"41\" in the face, and am not encouraged. i pray your dreams come true. bless you.
You are such a strong woman & I know that the Lord will provide you with the chance of being a mother again & as you said to an earthly child. My prayers are with you as you go thru this time & with as you enter the IVF realm. God Bless you.
I am so sorry for your loss. My hearts breaks for you. I had a bad feeling when I hadn\'t heard anything from you after Thursday. I know how hard it must be for you to deal with another great loss. However, you are such a strong person and I hope and pray that you will enventually be blessed with a baby to love and care for.
I was really hoping this pregnancy would be different. I know it is hard to think about keep on going but I know that you have the strength to do it. I did after 4 m/cs. My hubbie has the balance translocation issue too. The bright side of things, after our second IVF I am currently 5 weeks pregnant and looking good. So you know it can happen. Being pregnanct is truly an amazing experience that I pray God will bless you with. Here for you.
As all of the other women here, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I was praying for you that this time would be different. And as always, I am amazed by your strength and ability to see through your heartache to the next step. I pray for you that God will continue to grant you peace of mind and bless you with the baby you so much deserve!!!
Oh honey! I am so sorry. I feel your pain. I have not had 4 losses, but I just had my second and it was a tubal, so I had to have surgery. I just look at it as God\'s way of telling us that the time is not right. It is hard because we feel the time is right, but God is in control. I am praying for you and I think you will get that peace of mind with IVF.