Again it has been way too long sense I have wrote.  My husband is back to work and the Holidays have passed so hopefully things will slow down a bit.  I have been less and less emotional about my infertility.  I dont know if Im giving up or just learning to live with it, maybe both.  Christmas was a little hard seeing all the children an wondering if I will ever get to see Christmas through a mother's eye.  We are still just trying naturally, I just have a feeling that its not going to happen.  I knew that there was somthing wrong before I ever recieved my fertility testing back but I didnt want to believe it.  Turns my intuition is usually correct.  I really think I want to adopt.  I dont want to put my body through the pain if its not a for sure thing and if were going to spend that much money I want to know that Im going to have a child.  Scott on the other hand isnt so sure and its so hard when we want different things.  I just feel like this is my body and it is my right to be a mother, I dont want procedures done to my body but I want a child and I will find a way to do that, I just pray that I have my husbands support along the way.Ahhh well miss you all!