I cant work. I feel really guilty about it but I just cant do it right now. I am so confused. I dont know what to do and I dont know where to go for help. I mean my Dr did refer me to a genetic Doctor and that was fine I guess. He told me the same thing in a different way. I just dont know what to do. I feel like my husband is getting sick of my depression and obsession. Why cant I just be normal. I just dont understand any of this. The worst thing is that to do anything about it my husband and I are going to have to go into debt. Why isnt their programs in place to help us? Why isnt this considered a medical condition that insurance has to cover. They might as well have sat me down and said. Lindsay Today we are going to take all your dreams away from you. Life as you have known it is over. You are not normal, you cant be fixed. Everything that you have imagined has been worthless. Those baby dolls that you held when you were little are the closest you will get, maybe you should get them back out. horrible thoughts. I hate the thoughts but i dont know how to stop them. I dont know what to do anymore. Just when I think Im starting to feel better I sink down into another pile of tears.
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Have you looked into PGD (pre-implantation genetic diagnosis) with IVF? PGD will detect the balanced translocation. There is hope in that.
Hang in there. I know the depression and helpless feeling that you have right now. The only thing I can say is get all the knowledge you can and do whatever you have to in order to get back on track. It is a VERY hard thing for husband\'s to understand. Not saying you do, but don\'t shut him out of things, like I did mine, that makes things worse.
BIG HUGS to you. You\'ll find the path you need to be on, I have faith in you.
Oh my sweet love! You are normal and all those dreams did matter! They still do! I wish I had any idea what you were going through to help you through it I couldn\'t even imagine! I just know that you must be the strongest person i know. Don\'t give up faith and talk to your husband let him know how you feel, open him into your obsessive would. I know you probably try and I\'m not saying You don\'t! I read the most wonderful book, \"Avoiding Miscarriage\" It was worth the entire book, to buy it and to read it just to read the chapter, \"Understand Your Partner\"
Take it easy on you! Lots of love. . .
Oh my sweet love! You are normal and all those dreams did matter! They still do! I wish I had any idea what you were going through to help you through it I couldn\'t even imagine! I just know that you must be the strongest person i know. Don\'t give up faith and talk to your husband let him know how you feel, open him into your obsessive would. I know you probably try and I\'m not saying You don\'t! I read the most wonderful book, \"Avoiding Miscarriage\" It was worth the entire book, to buy it and to read it just to read the chapter, \"Understand Your Partner\"
Take it easy on you! Lots of love. . .
It is an emotional rollor coaster, ups and downs are so normal. You are not only grieving the loss of your baby, but the loss of your dreams in a sense. You need to know that your dreams are not over, there is always hope. Keep the faith, I know that it will all work out in the end. For some reason God is testing us all with all of this, but it will make us all stronger & better mommy\'s when it finally happens. God Bless you and your hubby!
I could not agree with dulcylee more... You should always have hope, no one is saying it will never happen for you... There is always hope and a chance your dreams will come true. I will keep you in my prayers. xx Krystle