Today I meet a gentic counsler. I wonder if they will be able to talk my chromosomes into being normal. Ha Ha see I can still joke. I just wish there was something I could do. There is nothing I can do... I just have to keep repeating that to believe it. No diet no herb no exercise no drug no surgery no hormone NOTHING it is me. Its so weird to think that EVERY cell in my body has this "defect". Every cell... thats alot.
What makes me really sad is if I ever do get pregnant I know that I want to have more than one. I have 3 sisters and I dont know what I would do without them. They are my best friends in this world and I want to be able to offer that to my child but I may never get to have one let alone two.
I have at least gained more respect for the beauty of life through all of this. It truly is so fragile. Like my Doc said it is truly a miricle everytime it happens. So many tiny factors have to be just right.
When my mom was pregnant with me I has a chromsome that was "broken" so the other chromosome broke and attached to "fix" that problem, had that not happend my mom would have miscarried me. I think that it was so strange how I react to that and how she reacts to that. My mom thinks Oh thank you God for letting my baby live and I question God why does it have to be this way. A good thing for her, and if the alternative was death then I guess I am happy that I am this way too.
I dont want to be ungreatful to GOd. I am thankful for my gift of life nomatter what. I just pray that God does his will with my future and that I can let go and let him work in my life.
What makes me really sad is if I ever do get pregnant I know that I want to have more than one. I have 3 sisters and I dont know what I would do without them. They are my best friends in this world and I want to be able to offer that to my child but I may never get to have one let alone two.
I have at least gained more respect for the beauty of life through all of this. It truly is so fragile. Like my Doc said it is truly a miricle everytime it happens. So many tiny factors have to be just right.
When my mom was pregnant with me I has a chromsome that was "broken" so the other chromosome broke and attached to "fix" that problem, had that not happend my mom would have miscarried me. I think that it was so strange how I react to that and how she reacts to that. My mom thinks Oh thank you God for letting my baby live and I question God why does it have to be this way. A good thing for her, and if the alternative was death then I guess I am happy that I am this way too.
I dont want to be ungreatful to GOd. I am thankful for my gift of life nomatter what. I just pray that God does his will with my future and that I can let go and let him work in my life.
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Too bad your sister\'s can\'t lend you their cells, huh? I\'m sorry you have to go through this. Not fair.
Best Joke EvER! So sorrry that you have a broken chromosome but i\'m so happy that your body fixed itself! THere is always adoption, there are millions of beautiful babies that will make your beautiful babies(that you will have) good sisters! I hope the doctor can talk your chromosomes into being normal! Lots of love to you.
Oh honey. I am so sorry for you. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Sorry it\'s taken me so long to write but I\'ve been busy. I hope that God will choose to grant you a little miracle. If he chooses not to I hope you find the hope and strength to find maybe another little one who is already in this world and needs you. Because I am willing to bet that there are alot of them that need you :) Write if you need to chat. I\'m here and I\'m thinking of you!