a friend kez metion i  haven't been on this site in awahile. i have been sick my ibs has been real bad. i have been running to the bathroom since wednesday. i did make it saturday and got it in my clothes. it has slow done today.  i have gone only ten times today. i am just marking everthing as read as i can't possible catch up. i miss giving out my hugs. it's almost 6 pm and i fell like i will have to go again real soon. i have got no sleep because of it i am feeling horrible because of it and my picture will so that in this journal. i have also join some survey groups where you can make some money for answering their surveys. so i might have to trim down my friends list from those i never hear from anyway. i like the new ptsd group, digg,and know surveys. i will be busy and also putting my sports card collection in my computer. while writting this i went to the bathroom for the eleventh time today. so you can see why i fill horrible. the doctor says it is from stress of this being and anniversay of a battle i was in june and july. they are always bad months for me think god july is all most over maybe i can send hugs to you than my friends. so a big group hug to all my friends on daily strength.