they hock up my new system. i have to take my weight also,blood presurer,blood sugar, and oxgen leavel. it than asks twenty questions about how my health limits my activies and how depression affects my activities. she wants me to answer the questions ever day except for thursday that will be my day off just from ansering the questions. i have to take those measurments ever day. the readings go to a va hospital in texas. they get readings from over 20,000 veterens from all over the usa. they will than send my information to my doctor at the va hospital in desmoines. i think i will tell you why i hate the holidays. i hate them because in the service we got a loosy christmas had to work even thou it was the holiday so it was just like any other day. than when my exwife took my kids away from me even made it worse. i get christmas gifts for my parents but i get no gifts under my tree. so i haven't put up my decoration now in three years. i can't wait untill these depressing holidays are over. i him depressed at this time ever year. i think most veterns fell the same way about the holidays the ones i have talk to that have ptsd fell the same way about the holidays as i do. people are suppose to be real happy around this time of year but there are lots of people out their you hate the holidays for one reason or another. the only think i look forward to is having my oyster stew a tradition on my exwife side of the family didn't have oyster stew tell i was married and loved it. i was going to have it more than once a year when i got divorce did for awahile but they are so damn expensive that i leave it as a christmas eve tradition for myself and look forward to making oyster stew. that's the only think i like about the holidays.