Been blue for a couple of weeks...Today I'm totally depressed. 1. Started aquatic therapy in March. A couple of weeks ago I hurt so bad I had to    leave half way through my session. This stupid chronic pain patient couldn't    even keep up with the 80 year old ladies with walkers. That pain flare lasted a    week. Way to go moron. 2. My wife needed help moving a desk. Made the move OK but I crumbled at     the end...another week in 10+ pain. I'm on the sideline watching everyone    else.  I can't do anything. I'm useless. 3. Medication is not working very well. My doctor changed my medications six    months ago. Don't tell me I'm going to have to beg for more relief.    I feel like a pauper begging for scraps. 4. I'm beginning to realize that there is no silver bullet...No wonder cure. That's a    great feeling knowing that I can never have controll of anhything the rest of       my life. 5. I know I'm a drain on my family. What did my wife do to deserve a cripple like    me?