9/04/07--This is my first time at keeping a journal so here goes. Today is my pain management doctor visit. He gave me injections in both sides of my back last month, neither worked. He's giving me kadian for continuous pain relief, four Percocet a day, and three Soma a day for breakthrough pain. When I told him i ws getting tolerant to the Percocet he was mostly unresponsive.  I feel terrible having to beg for drugs. I'm not an addict, but the doctors make be feel like one every time I ask for a change in medication. I did get our the house this weekend for the first time in a long time, so I feel kinda like a normal person. Don't think I'll ever be normal. Just hope I can get enough pain relief to keep from going crazy.