i am back after a long time of posting nothing. well i thought i had found a good guy but that turned out to be a bust. i am just not having luck with men. the winter is making me soooooo depressed so i am even more down on myself than usual and everything seems to be a mess. i just cant get out of my terrible mood and i think i am making people in my life mad by being so mean. its just really, really, really not a good day.