Update

Well I'm still here.Haven't been on DS for a very long time.I miss Justin so very much.My heart still aches for him.Haven't done much this summer swimming and going to the mall.We did go to the movies to watch my sister's keeper very good movie tear jerker though.I've had Braden the last couple of weekends he tells me he misses his Daddy just breaks my heart.He is so full of love.We did go camping a few weeks ago it was nice to get away.Mike is on vacation this week we are going to Branson for a couple of days.Hope it doesn't rain. My life has changed so much sometimes I don't know how to feel anymore.It's like part of me is missing.My attitude has changed I take things very seriously now I worry about my kids all the time I can't go through losing another child I feel like I'm smothering them I can't let go.Hope everyone is doing better than me.Life sucks.Luvs