Monday

Monday morning and I'm up early Rebecca is out of school today.Had my Buddy Braden this weekend how I love my grandchild he looks and acts like Justin.Had a really fun weekend he wasn't ready to go home but I had him for 3 days.We all went to the mall did some impulse buying a new purse,jeans,shirts and some house stuff I think I need counseling.I go today to get haircut and hairlights, today is my day YEAH!!!!! I went to cematary Sat Justin's headstone was so pretty and clean I put roses and 2 angels and of course a big foot truck he loved those. Went to Sunday school yeasterday I was very late so missed alot of it  but at least I made a effort.I joined bible study on Tuesday mornings were studying Ester by Beth Moore awesome teacher and funny. I miss Justin more and more but I do admit it isn't constant like it was I usually have 2 breakdowns a week I know in my heart he wants me to be my old self but that won't happen I still have a part of him in my heart that's just for him.God how I love my son. I have been through alot and have suffered a great deal. But I have lots of memories,as well,Every moment one lives is different from the other.The good,the bad,hardship,the joy,the tragedy,love and happiness are all interwoven into one single,indescribable whole that is called life.You cannot separate the good from the bad.And perhaps there is no need to do so either. I shall not pass this way again:Then let me now relieve some pain.Remove some barrier from the road,Or lighten someone's heavy load. Thanks to all my precious DS friends as I say it again I don't know where I'd be .Your all my support line.Love you all.God Bless.Peace and big warm hugs,Vicki