Saturday

Yeah its Sat.It's cold here have burned alot of wood this week.Have had a few bad days this week.Can't get control of my feelings.I have been doing alot of impulse buying  everyday my husband says I'm breaking us.I think I do it to try and make me feel better but it doesn't really help because I'm out there the next day buying again I also do alot of buying off the internet.I CAN"T STOP!!!!!!! We painted our main bathroom a red color but I left the safari look in there spent alot of money on curtains,shower curtain and towels.Mike made me a wine rack above my bar.Looks good even tho we don't drink much wine.Mike drinks everyday since Justin has died he even admitted he was drinking to much vodka and coke or beer.I drink wine once in a blue moon but I'm on medication so I try not to. I just want to say I read everyone's journals everyday I know I don't comment back but I think of all of you.You all have been a inspiration to me.I really don't know where I'd be without this web site probably 6 feet under ground.Your all very special to me.Justin 2 years is coming up on March 21 I'm already having nightmares of that awful day.I just want to hug and kiss him and say I love you.Peace to all hope the weekend will be better for all of us.Peace,Vicki