The last 2 weeks have been hell on me very depressed.Went to Dr.Thursday changed some of my medication.I don't think I'll ever forget or how I felt when Justin died.He's on my mind everyday don't know what to do can't get him of my mind what a life!!I guess as they say time will tell but I don't think that day will ever come I'm so so so depressed.I don't even care about anything anymore.I'm a body walking around hollow.I don't think I'll be on much anymore.I'm very frightened right now.Don't know why maybe it's because I lost one of most precious babies.God I need help I can't do this by myself.I love you so much Justin,love ya,mom,jfm24,Vicki
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ir u leave the site, please check in and let us know how ur doing...its been 19 months for me since losing cody,,,and i still feel so hollow and numb...and so sad and depressed...just remember we will help u here...dont be frightned and leave us not knowing how u are, ok...ur a part of our family and we will worry and wonder about you...ur in my thoughts and prayers forever and always...walking with u ...hand in hand...love ya
Oh, Vicki, please don\'t say you won\'t be on here much anymore. I hope you will reconsider and stay. I know the feelings of fear and hopelessness are so debilitating, but you must continue to fight for your inner strength to take over and help guide you. I think you can find that here, if you continue sharing your feelings through your journal. We have all had those dark times, when it seems they will never end, but then you realize it is one little tiny bit less hard one day. When you feel that little bit of hope, let that feeling comfort you and give you some strength to keep on fighting. I will miss you terribly if you leave this site. Stay, and pray, and ask God for strength. As Him to allow Justing to hold you up when you are feeling down. I hope you find some peace today. Love, Nancy
I also hope you don\'t leave DS Vicki. I would miss you very much. The season could be adding to your depression(alot of people become more depressed during the winter) and the fact that the anniversary of your son\'s death is coming up soon. If you do decide to leave, please let us all know from time to time how you are doing. You are in my thoughts and prayers:0)