well this year is almost over I hope 2008 is more kind to us all.Went to cematary,my brother ,2 sisters,niece and nephews family all came there we all cried trying to understand why this had to happen.They all say he's in a better place and I know he is but don't help me any I want him here I wanted to see him grow the rest of my life.Hope everyone had a merry christmas wasn't much happiness for me I tried my hardest to be happy for my girls.I had my grandson(Braden) over the weekend.We had Christmas with him he talked alot about his daddy he's still wants us to go found him he thinks he's lost. breaks my heart to see him pick up pictures of his dad and give him a big hug and say I Love You Daddy.Very bright boy for three.I was shocked how much he remembers his Dad, but really they were so close they were buds.I'm thinking of Justin alot today.All the good and bad times we went through.I will always remember that last night before he died that kiss,hug and I Love you Mom talk to you  tommorow well that day never came.I'm so glad that was his last words to me I will cherish them for the rest of my life.So many of us are hurting and I wish it never happen to any of us.They say things get better as time goes by but I don't believe it we all have voids in our heart how can you mend a broken heaqrt?God Bless you all thanks for all the hugs,love and understanding you all have given me.you all are awesome people jfm24,vicki big hugs and much love.