Well today the sun is shining.I'm starting to get the shakes about Christmas.I have mixed emotions about it.I don't want to cry and ruin the girls Christmas.Just to hear Justin's name makes me cry.My husband told me he had a dream about Justin,that he was alive standing by him with the biggest smile on his face I just melted, crying so hard.My family says thats why they don't say his name because I always cry and it makes them sad to see me cry, when they know they can't help me. But they always hug me.I hope one day I can accept Justin's death right now I can't.He was my buddy always checking on me everyday and I miss that he was so so a part of me.He always needed me to help him out because he never made enough money just to live.My love for him was so strong.Hugs to everbody.jfm24,Vicki