Thanks to all who have been so supportive of me and my feelings.It has been a long 8 months.I wonder if the pain and sadness will ever let up.Had a fairley good day in the morning time I actually got out and went to Target to get stockting stuffers.I was on my way home and this sadness overwhelmed me I cried all the way home.I have been out shopping a few times before and all of a sudden I just start crying had to drop everything and leave.I don't know how much longer I can keep doing this I know Justin wouldn't want me to feel this way.I'm still taking baby steps go forward a little bit then go back to the beginning.I'm going to the cematary today bought Justin a little Christmas tree,2 snowmen,angel and some beautiful Christmas flowers.That's about all I can do for him for Christmas.God I miss him so so much,I miss his smile,sense of humor,his love,his smell of his clothes and all those visits and phone calls I'll never see or hear anymore.I'm trying to be positive today need to go to Walmart and buy a new coffee pot our's just quit working only had it for a month.So I hope everyone has a better day.Will write more later love to all,jfm24,vicki
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I miss all those things about Chris too-these holidays are tough and you are doing the best you can and that\'s all you can do, take it a day, or a moment at a time. Ed and I had a nice dinner yesterday and walked around a store-I saw this ridiculously huge remote they were selling and ended up crying all the way home remembering how I bought Chris this little table to put his remote on in his bedroom-so I understand how the littlest thing just triggers the sadness-and all you can do is just cry it out. I hope you get a good coffeepot and that you have a better day tomorrow, Love, Sandy
i sure understand ur sadness and pain...its gona be 18 months for me on the 20th...still feels like it was yesterday...missing my son so much!!
huggin u extra tight...ur not alone...love ya
Vicki my heart goes out to you. I really am sorry for all your pain and sorrow. Glad you got a tree and other Christmas things for Justin\'s grave-it is a way to honor him and bring some Christmas spirit to him. I am sure he will look down and see those decorations and smile. Hang in there my friend. Sorry about the coffee pot!:0)