well i didn't go anywhere for TG i stayed home by myself slept most of the day.Kids put up the christmas tree.i did help some.i had a major breakdown on TG.i cried till there were nomore tears.i went into my daughter's room theirs a picture of justin from last christmas i think i'm going to take it down its one of those close up pictures when i look at it he's staring right into my eyes.makes me cry everytime i see it.i'm so tired of being sad.i have no routine anymore.everything around here is so screwed up.i guess life has to go on but it sure is damn hard for me.sometimes i wish God would just take me from my misery.it's not fair as they say there's a reason for what happen and God only gives you what you can handle.If that's true why are all of us is so heartbroken?hugs,jfm24,vicki