well i made it through halloween,i'm trying real hard to think positive thoughts.but Justin is still right by my side.I'm starting to remember good times we had as a family.there's not many but they are coming back slowly.it's been 7 months it has went by so fast i'm already getting nervous about the holidays.don't know if i can make it through them please pray for me.I got to see my grandson last weekend i was so happy that weekend justin's best friend and wife picked him up and took him to chucky cheese they said he had a blast.Sunday we went to a birthday party all the little ones dressed like pirates.they all were so cute then we went on a hay ride braden had a smile ear to ear.He didn't want to go home he cried all the way home but once he saw his mom he was ok.as he was getting in the car he said mema and papaw mike i want to come back to your house real soon.We all had a great weekend.i'm sending hugs to everyone hope it's a maybe postive day.jfm24,vicki