I do believe my joy in life has come to a end. my happiness is gone.i try so hard to keep it togather but i know it shows.I sometimes can't even breathe parents are not suppose to lose their child.it isn't fair for all of us.I ask why me i'm not a strong person is god testing me and for what?are children are our lives we gave them all are love raised them to be loving kids taught them about life.I even talked to justin growing up about how drugs are playing with the devil i guess i didn't do a very good job.i feel so guilty i wish i could start over.i can't figure out what went wrong.all i know is that i miss my son so much i can't bear it.i want my old life back i just can't start another one over i'm tired and so so sad.my heart has a whole that keeps getting bigger.what are we to do?jfm24,vicki wednesday 24,2007
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I feel the same I dont think there will ever be true joy in my life, but we must pick ourelves upa nd keep trying for what Im not sure but when I find out Ill let everyone know,no we arent supposed to lose our precious children,you have 2 granchildren that you need to make them remember who their daddy was..I wish for my old life back too....
HUGS
Kim Ashleysmom
We do the only thing we can do which is deal with our sadness as best we can. We have no choice.
I also feel \"what did I do wrong\" and I ask \" what did I not see\". The answer is our children made a teribble mistake and they paid with losing their lives. Now, unfortunately we have to deal with the consequences.
I had not a clue about my son ,in hindsight I probably should have. Most of the time I don\'t blame myself because we all make choices , i am just so sad that my son had to pay with his life for that awful decision.
I hope you come to terms with blaming yourself and that you did not do a good job. I know I did the best I could and I always set a good example and in spite of that my son started doing drugs @ age 26 and OD when he was 28.
Thanx for requesting me as a friend. Inga