I'm not feeling right this am i'm so down i went to the cematary yesterday i put two little scarecrows in his vase with some fall flowers looked so cute of course i cried sometimes i think when i go there it makes me feel worse but somehow i'm drawn to go there.i know he's not there.but i believe that you need a place to go and sit, put flowers and to talk to justin kinda silly.but i feel he's all alone out there.i feel so bad.i talked to braden on the phone yesterday we had a real good visit even tho his 3 and a half he's smart as a whip.he wanted to come over but his mom said no.i started crying and he got real sad. his mother doesn't want me to cry around him i just told him i missed him.i got the local paper yesterday one of justin's friends bryan died oct.7 i could'nt believe it i called his mom she said they don't know how he died they are waiting for the toxicogly report to come back he had 2 children like justin.i was in shock.seems like justin is slowly losing his friends i think it was drug related but don't know for sure.i hope everyone tries to have a happy day hugs,prayers to all,jfm24,vicki