well i made it through yesterday. today is sept 25 tuesday.i feel kinda shaky today.my emotions are going crazy this morning.almost like it is erie.i'm scared,unhappy,and don't know what to do.baby steps are not helping me.i want justin back so much i can taste it.i'm not ready for him to be gone.I sure wish God would step in and help me to understand but. i know that will never happen. Justin i went to your grave sunday as you probaly know i cried for you.and I miss you so much.heaven and braden miss you and love you. braden just doesn't understand where you are.He still talks about you, always wanting to go find you.i hope i can see him this coming weekend.Son i know you are at peace and happy.i just wish i was.loving you and always thinking about you,mom
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It has been 3 and a half years since my son, BJ died.What an emotional roller coaster. I am here to say that it will get better. It gets worse-soooo much heart ache and pain and whys and what ifs etc.... but evenually I found some peace. I still have bad days and still wish every day that BJ was here. What helped me ALOT was making friends with other parents frpm compassionate friends.I\'m here if you need to talk or chat.
That sounds like a good suggestion from nononanette-getting to know other people who are going what you are going through Vicki. I suppose you get some of that from the bereavement section. Also, maybe there is a support group for parents who lost children in your area.