today is sept.24,monday.i have been to the hospital all morning my little sister had a hesterrecomy.she want thru it with flying colors.my daughter ashli just left she never stays over here very long.ashli and i went to the cematary yesterday of course we both stood there and cried someone had left justin's sunglasses on his headstone i took them home so i can keep them in a safe place.i miss him i talked to his son braden last night he ask me if justin was there i just said he wasn't here.what a heart break.i honestly don't know what to tell him he's only 3/12.i have such sadness that it's hard to talk to someone else they don't know how much pain their is when you lose a child.people try to help but they say the wrong things they never ask how i'm doing.and i'm talking about my family i have one brother and 7 sisters i never get a phone call from them anymore.it saddens me that they don't keep in touch if they do call all they talk about is their happy family and here i'm here in so much grief, right on the edge of asking God to take me to where justin is.my life is so screwed up i don't know what to do sometimes i feel my husband and my 2 girls would do better without me i feel like i'm dragging then down.justim mom loves you so much i can't wait to see you.my be years but son your always in my heart.i wish you could tell me your alright.love and kisses mom. jfm24,vicki