today is thursday the 19th tomorrow justin's has been gone 6 months.i'm trying to take baby steps but sometimes those baby steps seem big.i hope this weekend i can see my grandson braden he looks so much like his dad.his looks and actions remind me alot of justin when he was little.i don't know how to get my life started again i'm so so sad and confused.i would of never thought i would lose one of my children it hurts like hell.i feel like i'm going crazy sometimes don't know where to go or even how to do it. if i didn't have this website i don't know where i'd be.this is a very good website cause you can write how you feel or just have someone read your journals or give hugs and give some comfort that i'm not alone.thanks to all who have replied to me keep them coming. jfm24,vicki