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I have recently fallen in lvoe with my best friends ex boyfriend.
but you must understand. The man i'm in love with i have known for 10 years. i introduced him to my best friend and they dated for 2 years. i've only known my best friend for about 3 years. my history with this man is own of deep connection and understanding.
i work with my best friend, and although i tried to resist falling in love with her ex, i did. i came clean to her and told her everything. we had started seeing eachother, etc. she is so livid with me. she says she is still in love with him. i'm devastated that i'm hurting her. we will go periods of time without talking now. it will never be the same. she feels abandonned because she has had many girl friends that sleep with her boyfriends, but its not like that with me. we never had an afair. my friend never cheated on her. it happened nine months later. now my best friend has a boyfriend, and she still begrudges me this. its miserable.
im so tense at work, its making me sick.
blend that wil home stress, and estranged brother, and an aunt about to die ive just about had it.
when i left my long time b/f (5 years) in May, i lost his sister and his best friend, who were my closest friends, due to taking sides. they pledged allegiance to my ex and i ws left alone. i just burnt this bridge with my ex, and my mom is crazy now because of my estranged brother. i feel very much alone, and like im holding my family together.
im tired of feeling like a bad person. i know my bffl will never forgive me, and seeing ehr everyday makes her upset. ive begun cutting intermittently. i just dont want to feel out of control anymore.
but you must understand. The man i'm in love with i have known for 10 years. i introduced him to my best friend and they dated for 2 years. i've only known my best friend for about 3 years. my history with this man is own of deep connection and understanding.
i work with my best friend, and although i tried to resist falling in love with her ex, i did. i came clean to her and told her everything. we had started seeing eachother, etc. she is so livid with me. she says she is still in love with him. i'm devastated that i'm hurting her. we will go periods of time without talking now. it will never be the same. she feels abandonned because she has had many girl friends that sleep with her boyfriends, but its not like that with me. we never had an afair. my friend never cheated on her. it happened nine months later. now my best friend has a boyfriend, and she still begrudges me this. its miserable.
im so tense at work, its making me sick.
blend that wil home stress, and estranged brother, and an aunt about to die ive just about had it.
when i left my long time b/f (5 years) in May, i lost his sister and his best friend, who were my closest friends, due to taking sides. they pledged allegiance to my ex and i ws left alone. i just burnt this bridge with my ex, and my mom is crazy now because of my estranged brother. i feel very much alone, and like im holding my family together.
im tired of feeling like a bad person. i know my bffl will never forgive me, and seeing ehr everyday makes her upset. ive begun cutting intermittently. i just dont want to feel out of control anymore.
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