My husband got laid of yesterday.  He is working on the checkbooks now and is grumpy.  I'm having a breakdown and is crying a lot.  I just want to die.  I can't take anymore of these episodes.  I know God wants me to be a stay-at-home wife and mother but I wish I could get a part-time job when my son is a school so I could help out a little better. I feel really helpless.  I'm not sure how much longer I will have internet access.  I just don't know what to do.