I keep crying.  I'm so scared.  I've had too many horrible things happen to me.  I used to handle stress well but whatever it was that helped me handle it is gone or near gone.My ex is a flake and doesn't like to work.  When he would get fired or quit a job, there would be a long period of unemployment for him.  The longest I seen him keep a job is around a year.  He wouldn't look for work on a frequent basis.  Generally, I had work and would support us.I know my husband is not like this and shouldn't worry.  He is hard working and much more motivated.I just can't forget the past.  I don't want to see my husband hurting.  I don't like to see anybody hurting.God bless my friends.