Things have been rough for me. It was Christmas time when something very bad happened to me. It ruined my life as it was at the time. I don't like this time of year. I am so afraid of something happening to my son or husband. I don't want to end up like I did before. I have to depend on others because I'm in too bad a shape to be on my own. I hated dealing public assistance agencies because they treated me like garbage. I can't work anymore. I tried to have a career. It just didn't work out. I'm just so afraid of things.