Things have been rough for me.  It was Christmas time when something very bad happened to me.  It ruined my life as it was at the time.  I don't like this time of year.  I am so afraid of something happening to my son or husband.  I don't want to end up like I did before.  I have to depend on others because I'm in too bad a shape to be on my own.  I hated dealing public assistance agencies because they treated me like garbage.  I can't work anymore.   I tried to have a career.  It just didn't work out.  I'm just so afraid of things.