I get up at 3 today.It is so dam late.I feel low these days.I worry about the payment.Should I pay him? There are not much choices.I have to learn from him.It is 8:40pm I am sitting alone infront of the computer.My family keep talking.I just want to be alone.I think I should not think of my lover.Because she will be just a orinary person.I am better off alone.I do not have to worry about her.It is  almost 10pm I am so awake.I feel like partying.I cannot find a good party.Something cheap.I can go to the bar.I do not think I like company.I do not want to talk.Touching is good.I cannot find someone to touch.