I woke up at 1 again.I went to buy lunch myself then my parent call me ask me to give them a ride.I came home feeling empty.Tonight I am going to be depress again.It is almost 7:30 I am not hurgy.I am angry.I hate to live.I just hate everything.No one will come up to me to make me feel better.A doctor cannot makes me feel any better.I need to meet someone sexy.It will not be that perfect relationship.That is the reality.It is almost 12am I do not feel like sleeping.I wish I am dead.I am going to stay up until I am tried.I did not do shit today.