So it is finally new years eve.I have nothing to do again.I am not sure if I should go to the trading school.I do not have money to trade.I do not know if I can work for someone.shit.fuck.There will super stars on tv tonight.It is almost 7:15pm I had dinner.Nothing interesting on tv.I feel like I do not need to sleep tonight.My mother went to my aunt's house for pot luck.I think I am pushing myself too much to work.Life is hard.We have to work to make money.Relationship is tough.Willl not go the way we wanted.I just hope I have money to live for the rest of my life.I hope I die soon.