I feel hopeless today.I still cannot find a way to make money.I am going to try to learn massage from a martial art teacher and a chinese doctor.It is 7:30pm I am feeling depress.I got this doctor number.Time goes so slow. I do not believe I cannot start a business.It is 11pm I drank some sugarcane juice.I feel clam down.I do not know why.I keep thinking how bad life is.