I get up in the morning to see my doctor.I do not feel too bad when I get up.It is improvement.It went good.I feel alittle depress because I think I can get a pay job.I came back at 2 feeling empty.I do not want to do anything.I just want some attendtion.It is 8:00 I am feeling depress and hopeless.It is 11pm I went to get a massage.I still feel depress.I hate life.....